I am back
Thursday, June 7, 2007 @ 5:53 PM
Sorry for everyone waiting for my new post updated. Recently a lot of event happen, tennis training , basketball training, gym training,looking for job and etc. The most important among all is my BBQ planning, there will be estimate around 30 plus people going. I am the overall-in-charge of this BBQ. I need to buy food, plan budget, plan games, all this processes need to go through a lot of thinking and planning. But the experience is very fulfilling and rewarding to plan this BBQ a successful one.
Si an still have 4 months away from my tennis tournament, very nervous and scare that i cannot catch up to kallang tennis player level. My senior Chris told me that their level there are high as pro. I am so demoralized and don know how to react to him.
But i am not going to give up on losing hope of wining the first round of my tournament.I am aiming to reach my tennis club captain level and even higher. I want to train harder and harder and more stronger than anymore else in the world.
At the same time , i will balanced my work and tennis well enough to cope.Tennis is my life passion but work is work, play is play.I will aim for my book prize inviting for me. :)
I am very sad now as i am confused about love, and love is a strange but funny feelings. I dunno whether god is making fun of me, as i always a failure in term of finding true love. I wonder when my true love to come? 10 years?20 year? 30 year? or none to come for the rest of my life? I want to cry now, really want to cry. People said real man shouldn't cry but i disagree, study show that man cry will help to improve their mental and emotional health.
So man cry out when u have any sad or unhappy event going on. Sob:(((After cry, you will feel better.I hope god will not make fun of me but creating some joke on me. That all sob sob:((