Thursday, October 30, 2008 @ 6:50 PM
I am very fcuk right now and very frustrated in my mind. CB everything and fcuk everything. KNNCB, I feel very fcuk up now with everything espically with my life.This last semster is probably my hardest semster of all. I JUST WANT TO SCOLD ANYONE AND FCUK MYSELF.
I not scolding anyone but I just feeling very angry and upset about everything. I screw up the WISP project and facing major problems. I feel very stupid right now and I hate this life.
SHUT THE HELL OUT THOSE WHO WANT TO COMMENT ON THIS POST
Labels: Hate myself
Tuesday, October 28, 2008 @ 10:25 AM
It been the third week of the school semster and I have not get used to school life.I been slacking quite a lot while trying to focus on my study.Regarding about my previous blog post, I want to apolognise on what I comment on it. I know I always have low self-esteem on myself which some of my close friends should know that. I just feel very lost in this reality world, on which type of life I should set for myself. I know people say that one should decide his/her future by themselves not other people who decide their future.But it just doesn;t make sense to me at all to a certain extend.
Maybe I think too much about this matter and it like a retribution to me. I feel that I becoming more dumb than ever in my life now. It like my brain cannot work properly when solving problems. Arggh!!
But something doesn't change in my mind no matter what happen.Appreciate my loved one & friends is very important to me. I am sorry about the previous blog posting. Fate & destiny bring us to become friends together. It not like I forcing all of you all to be my friends. It like fate which bring u to become my friends. It inevitable this to happen for my situation.
I going to organise another secondary school gathering to meet up with my friends. It been ages since the last times we meet and have fun interacting.
Labels: Looking for goals and directions toward future
Saturday, October 25, 2008 @ 8:30 AM
It the second week of the school, I am so bored of it. Being in sale line is not easy when economy is not that good and people won't buy my products. It just so sux and so frustrating working in courts. People are fcuking unfriendly and hostile toward me and everyone doing their own business.
I hate this fcuking world and I hate everyone that make me feel frustrated about it. People just taking me for regard for my kindness and intention. Whatever I treat my friends sincerly so much that they take me for regard.I use to tell people that there are true friends in this world. But my thinking was wrong from this year on on, I am disappointed again and again. Period after period friends disappointing me again and again.
Friends are they really my friends in fact?Friends promise are just called empty promises by them? Promise just a sentence that not going to fulfill.I want to believe my friends as much as I can but their actions make me feel that u all not trustable in my point of view.
Everything just sux including my life and these people living this planet. I HATE THIS WORLD
Labels: Don believe in promises .why friends disappinted me again and again
Thursday, October 23, 2008 @ 7:30 AM
TAGGED BY: Dolly,ROCKER!=)
RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.
1. Do you have secrets?Yeah..some big secrets of my life!
2. Would you fall in love with a girls older than you?Mmm...love has no bourdnary..but probably not bah.
3. Do you enjoy going to sch?I prefer sec sch life than now!
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?Travel ard world and become a national georgraphic staff
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend's stead?Definitely no!
6. If you have to choose one person between ur boyfriend & best friend, who will you choose?Both I would cause both are precious to me!
7. List out your 20 favourite songs:
Fall for u
Your guardian angel
Crazy
Breaking the habit
Shadow of the day
Your my desnity
Everlasing
Every heart
Gekidou
Far away
Numb
Make me wonder
Photograph
Perfect World
Love song
Stop & Stare
Tattoo
The reason
Walking proud
When your Gone
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?Forget abt it
9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?Seeing kids smile =DD
10. What makes you angry?Back-stabber, liar,bully, Racism, any other bastard living in this planet.
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?IDK..maybe millionare?Or ordinary clerk
12. Who is currently the most important people to you?> Family& Friends
13. What is the most important thing in life?Peace & Hamonry&Money
14. What is more important? Family or Career? Both I should say.
15. What is your favourite colour?White
16. Would you give all in a relationship?Yeah
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?Depend on who I love the most:DD
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?Depend on the situation.
19. What do you want to tell the someone you like?How impt is she in u life=DD
20. 5 people I have tagged:1. Wei hoon 2.Jia Wei 3. JiaHui4.Julia5.Twinkle
Labels: Survey =DDD
Sunday, October 19, 2008 @ 8:22 AM
I don know where to start, where to end this blog post. Being in sale line is not easy as I imagine and I wish to give up on this job. As compare to F& B industry which I been working in, sale line is not easy not to be. I been attached to jurong point as sales promoter for shico. Today I manage to sell just one product only. It not easy being front line sale man and I hate this job. It just sux plus it no fun working over there. People over there are all unfriendly and cool about themselves. I just like one guy walking around my area without knowing any of them. So cool of them and I hate their attiude towards me.
I just hate myself and I hate this world for everythings. I hate some of my friends just quarrel because of small things. Why cannot people live in harmony together? We been friends for like quite a long period of time. Whatever unhappiness that we all have, I always keep quite and never mumble a word. I don't wish to quarrel with any of you all, cause all of you are my friends. Friends should not be quarrel with each other right? If that the case why be friends at the first place? As well everyone go their own ways and team with other people.
I always have this mindset that I wont' judge one people character based on their phyiscal appearances. Whether how fat ,thin,ugly,disabled, useless, proud, demanding, poor or rich, I won't critise these people. Cause I know how does it feel when people judge u based on u phyiscal appearnces. The feelings is not good and it also led to losing u self-confidence and lot of things. That mindset till now but thing have change cause of external enviornment. I tired to keep my philiosphy as always as it is but people keep changing it. U guys sux and should reflect yourselves. I finally understand the meaning of " Every man for himself".
It true and is a reality-fact in this planet earth that all of us are living in.As much as I am concern, I really wish I don't need to classified people into different categories. But it unavoided as it really happen right now.
Labels: Love all my friends with me through good/bad times
Wednesday, October 15, 2008 @ 8:17 AM
I am scared and really nervous of my entire FCUKING life.It happening to me for the second time of my life. I really scare that I will go into depressing state when I cannot handle study pressure.Who could really understand how I feeling right now? Who the fcuk going to understand I am feeling right now! First time happen to me during my second year of sch. I hate this feelings when I feel so pressure about studies. My mind is like going all-out blank and cannot think of anything else.
I start to think what is my purpose of my life in this planet. Why do I live in this world for?Why do friends exist in this world? I see from somebody else blog that friends are classified into two categories. Friends and acquaintance. I start to think these few days who are really my friends or just my acquaintance. In reality all my so called my friends are actually acquaintance. I don noe who are my true friends sometimes. I feel so lost and confused also .=X
Another thing is regard if those who think I putting too much emotional feeling in my post. Please get lost and don visit my blog ever again. I swear that I don want to see u face again.
A blog is for u to put u daily thoughs and feelings in it. It not for u guys to critise about it.
Labels: At a loss now
Monday, October 13, 2008 @ 9:00 AM
Hey! Everyone! I am back on again to updated my dead blog!!~~ This blog is like going to forget by people soon if I didn't updated regualrly.
My friends like jia wei, jia hui, julia, dolly and the rests going to shout and curse at me. I don wish to offend them and end up with no loyal visitor of my blog.
A lot of event have occur during these few weeks before school actually starts. Mmm, where do I start first? Last friday was my last day working at my firm and I bought some chocolate for them as farewell gift to all those I work with.
I miss working with them a lot. Although the working environment is very harsh and pressure as compare to school, I am impress of myself to be able to work for 7 MONTHS & 10 DAYS. Amazing I am right? XDD
I still remember when I first came in for intership,I was very nervous on the first day. I was wondering in the office, AM I REALLY GOING TO WORK HERE? =?? At first I feel strange working in the office.
Here is some image taken on my last day! =DD
Picture speak a thousand words I suppose that I got to say for this picture. Nishi, jeshen, yanli, rachel and a lot of collegues. Collegues from other department like zul( distrubuition), jali,hairi, zalim, raman, andrew, papuline, wanqian, YH, hao,ho, maldin and more!! Without them I would not be able to learn so much about logistics. Although sometimes all of us quarel among each others, we still end up happy as it is.
As for saturday I went out with adrain and harry to JB for shopping and eating. Sorry to trouble they all as they accompany me from lvl 1 to 4 back to 1 then 4 again for a few times. PS><>
Yesterday I went to carton hotel for high tea with my manager who treat me. I grab this opportunity to eat as much as I can as I am quite greedy about it. End up I having a big stomach as if I was pregnant.
Nothing much happen today for the first day of the last semester. But something nice happen to me today,harry give all the male classmates a T-shirt and sea shells. It was nice of him to give us and I really appreciate that. =DD
Last paragraph is dedicated for Dolly!!rocker!!, I will treat u one bot of breezer and I honour my promise!Mark my word and I will going to execute it soon! Waha...
Labels: Mixture feelings