Tuesday, June 10, 2008 @ 7:17 AM
Today was a really bad day and worse day of my attachment. I make mistakes in my work and get scolding from my manager. I feel so gulity as it was my mistake for making that mistake. I make two major mistake which will affect my performance. I feel like crying and went to toliet to reflect myself. I think I am too tired from yesterday night as I sleep at 1 plus!! Today I was release from work 6 15 and I was half dead and shag.
First major mistake that I make was my interim report,I did not make observe the rules. I am so dumb that put the company confidential information into my report. I like a adult just fresh out of the school and expose to working society life. In the end, I get scolding again from him. I feel so low and upset about it. People can change their facial expression in term of situation. People might be smiling at you at all times, but when get to work, their face changes. From smile to bad,from happy mood to sad mood.
People say I am a not a nice person to get along. I realise the two thing people don't like me. First talking to people about topic at wrong timing, and getting people frustrated by my action.
Secondly, my dumbness and stupindiness that make scare all my friends away!!
I hate myself! Arrgh..
am so tired of showing my concern to my friends when you all take thing for grated. Suddenly I reflect during my secondary time , something flash back to my mind. In Npcc I was train as a NCO(Non-commissioned officer) to train my junior. My Sir used to tell me " Don take thing for grated, Don 't let people climb over u head".
This phrase serve in my mind and heart as for now. My brain is kind of headache and cannot think really well. I wish all my friends will be listening to my problem not ignoring me.
Recently I been picking up the habit of reading books, it useful for my knowledge. I also regularly read magnizes to improve myself.
Today piggy sms puppie julia but she never reply la!!=X MIA from piggy for so long, as well avoid piggy and don't talk to him lor..=X Piggy just wish to know whether puppie feeling better or not. (:
Labels: Stupidness and brainless