Sunday, June 29, 2008 @ 8:13 AM
Just back from tennis session with my friend at upper timah road, and feeling quite low and tired. I admit I have negative thoughts and feelings in my mindset. I admit I am emoing now, thinking what the fcuk I am doing all along.
The tennis session was quite fun and I end up losing the match again and again. It just did not play as good as it , feel like throwing my tennis racket and smash it. I feel like giving up on tennis which is the sport I love till now. Why can't I go my very best and give my best shot?
Why can't all of my friends understand WHAT I AM FEELING NOW? I feeling very upset over my biggest weakness of my life, mumbling to people, speaking to people without confident! Stupid weisiong, go to hell with it, all u friends are leaving u one by one...soon u will be left over...and become a loner and disappear from the earth...u good friends or other friend don even bother to listen to u problem...no one caring what u problem..they will say to hell with it...
I have a probia that I will become dumb slowly...really scare I guess.
Labels: Dumbness