Monday, July 14, 2008 @ 6:47 AM
It is now 9.47pm , this is my 236 times I blog my post. I stop and breathe, thinking what to post. Today I know a new collegues that will be joining our commerical department. I hope she will be happy working here as there are challenges and stress in the coming days. Most of the new staff that I ever meet does not last more than 3 months. I wonderful this new coming staff will last how long.
I wonder this is a good new or bad news to me. I will be extending my attachment till october 10 which is a few days before school starts.I just wish to earn extra cash for myself and for my family finanical needs. I just apply the leave for myself to take a break from my work. I been like working like a bull like nobody business.My allowance after the intership will be sligher higher.I will be able to meet the new interim who will be coming over around september. I have extactly one month to train him of what I learn so far before I went back to school.
I been reading up about history books on world war II and other stuff. Everytime I read those sentence, my tears will shed to my face. Imagine that you are the medic and treating the wounded solider that are going to heaven. The blood is gushing from his windpipe or chest, you tired you best to stop his bleeding but it won't. I could feel very useless as I could help to save those lifes of those solider.
I feel like sheding down all my tears and let all my emotional upset out all my hearts.You guys cannot understand how does it feel from my point of shoe. I may be appear as strong as what you see me but I am emotional unstable person. I really emotional when I see sad part of anime when a person try so hard and yet don't deserve the efforts. Right now I am sheding my tears slowy down my face. I know I always been blogging on sad post while I really cannot stop thinking about it.
I know I have to understand and thought for all my friends around. I think I should not have show too much concern to my friend and get a side effects. Afterall we belong to different worlds no matter how hard I tired to maintain the gap bewteen us. I tired not to think about it and leave it as it is.I will not distrub you anymore like in the past, past is past,I won't yearn about it.
Somehow I learn my lesson from my previous friendship as it is, ignore this paragraph as my emotions i getting out of control.Friendship is like when u on a boat, the people sitting with u in the boat might be helping you. And at the same time will be hurting you as push you to the sea.
~~I sit on the chair, staring on the dark night sky, wonder what wrong with my life~~~
~~Life is like that , suck it up~~with reference to harry
~~Don't think so much, and move on~~
~~Emotions flow into my brain~~
~~without stopping and unbearable in my mind~~
~~why is there pain in this world~~
~~People say" we should cherish friendship~~
~~But how many really do understand~~
~~the meaning behind~~
~~Only those truly understand~~
~~the pain and effort to care~~
~~for them and let them~~
~~feel that there are always some one~~
~~caring for you~~
~~Done by~~
~~wei siong~~
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