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Friday, May 30, 2008 @ 7:55 AM

Friday!!Yay!! Finally the day when my weekend is coming!! These pass few days been raining and yesterday tennis session was cancel. So freaking boring but lucky can use internet and play.
Today I was almost later for work and lucky I saw my collegues and hop with her on the taxi. (:
I just reach the workplace ard 8.32 PM and two min later =.=...

After reaching there I find a table and rest and eat my breakfast. These few day I been almost late for work cause I have not enough sleep. Everyday I wake up lazily and crawl out of the bed, so tired and shag. I wish to have sleep evertlasting sleep and never wake up. Enough of the pain, happiness , sadness, anger and all rest of pain.

I don't wish to see pain around all my family, and I am seriously really tired. Today tennis was sux and I really very frustrated with that person. I hate him , seriously hate his attiude and it just sux. I DON LIKE HIM and feel like beating him. I know I have to endure it, fcuk off la you, I don't wish to see you!

Another thing I hate some of my friends is calling me nickname. Why call me nickname like " CHINA MAN, DOGGY BEAR AND ETC". I have feelings and come on la, if you imagine u the one being call nickname! HOW COULD U FEEL THE WAY! Get off my life!! I don't noe you all these kind of friends. I am so tired and want to die....

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Thursday, May 29, 2008 @ 8:10 AM

Sorry guys for MIA for these fews days cause my modem at home spoil already. The feeling of without updating my blog and doing my homework is sux. I don't like this feeling and I guess I have internet addiciton bah!! XDD

Anyway my father help me bought a new modem, really thanks him for the effort. Love you father!!(: My interim presentation was a totally failure, my teacher comment bad on me! I hate presentation, I hate myself , I hate the whole damm world. Why I cannot speak flunetly as well as other people?I only wish to be normaly human being to able to speak well.

My harddisk crash and I have to rush finish my ppt. I finish the ppt at ard 1 plus, so damm shag.
Today I being scolded by my manager, the feeling of being scolded not good. I feel so low and upset about it. For the first time I being scolded by my manager, it just not feel right! I really wish to get off this workplace and go another company!! Fcuk off all of you off!!Fcuk!!

I feeling so confused and easily affected by my friends. I miss all my friends as I been working and neglecting all my friends.I wish to be away from this workplace and go someone peaceful and nice. My dream is to be staff of national geographic taking photos of animals and natural.

Or I wish to be freelancer photographer and writer for a maganize company. They will pubish my picture in the maganize and share my picture with the readers. It my biggest dream that I wish to achieve in my life.

Anything I wish to write in this blog, is that I hate being poor. I hate being poor when you cannot buy or do anything you wish to buy. I hate this feelings when I got $$ but cannot spend. Hell man..to anything!! Argg!!..

I wish to be myself again that was once happy and cheerful. I reaching at the end of teenage stage and going to adult stage now. Going to another stage where obstacles are all waiting for me to overcome. I tell myself going to hold on and overcome all these obstaces, but will I overcome it in th end?

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Monday, May 26, 2008 @ 6:44 AM

Here the updated of what I been doing for these few days! Last saturday I went to yee tee and play basketball with them, it was quite hot and humid. I reach there around 10 plus with jeremey and jia wei. Play around for 4hours plus then finally stop playing. Totally shag afterwards, then went back to secondary school to see if it open. So disappointed it was close and my HARDDISK CRASH!!What a unlucky day for that day, the acer staff change the hard disk and all my information are gone!! =(

Wedensday is the day where I going to present for the interim presentation!! I am so nervous and wondering how many people going to see me present!! =DDD
I am going mad and siao and keep all distributing all my friends!I also been playing maple for these few day and friendster also!! I miss my secondary school life very much, as compare to now!

I going to ciao now!Cya!!
=)

Saturday, May 24, 2008 @ 8:55 PM

Name 20people.At the end of the survey , choose 5people to do the survey .Don't read thequestion , name the 20people first ! (:
1.Dai en
2. Vanesssa
3. Chloe qing
4.Jia wei
5. Jia hui
6.Zhi wei
7. Harry
8.Dolly
9. Shu juan
10. Wan lin
11. Debbie
12. Gervina
13. Sophia
14. Julia
15. Jia hui
16. Adrian
17. Jarrel
18. Fabian
19. Wei hoon
20. Myself!
How do you meet Number14 ?
Friendster(:
What would you do if u have not met Number1 ?
I would not a noe a nice friends!
What if Number9 & Number20 dated each other ?
lol..that impossible!!XDD
Will Number6 and Number17 date each other?
Well, gay in Singapore is not permiT!
Describe Number3
A nice and caring girl
Do you think Number8 is attractive ?
Yea!! Definitely!
Describe Number7
A honest and nice guy!
Do you know any family members of Number12 ?
Erm..Nope?
What language(s) does Number15 speaks ?
Hokkien..chinese..english?
Who is Number9 hanging out with ?
I don't know?
How old is Number16 this year ?
18 years old!!
When was the last time you spoke to Number13 ?
Well, a few months ago?=P
Who is Number2 favourite singer or band ?
Erm..not sure..
Have you ever dated Number4?
NO!!he my male buddy!
Would you ever date with Number1 ?
No!!=DDD
Is Number19 single now ?
YUP!
What is Number10 Lastname ?
Wan lin
Would you ever be in relationship with Number11 ?
Nope ,just classmate (:
What is the school of Number3 ?
Ngee ann poly!
Where does Number6 stay ?
Jurong east?
What is your favourite thing about Number5 ?
She also like to joke with people (:
Have you ever seen Number2 naked ?
Definitely nope!! =X
Now choose 5people to do this survey:
1. Julia
2. Dolly
3.Jia hui
4. Wei Hoon
5.Jia wei

Updated!!!
Thursday, May 22, 2008 @ 6:23 PM

Thing are not going smoothly as it is, not everything that I scheduled is going to be what I aim for. Report pump after report and like never ending one. Customer advice again yet again, yet is a never ending story for all my collegues and me!On wedendays jia wei and me went to play basketball instead of running. I become so easily tired as compare when I am during secondary school. I still remember everyday after school,my friends and I will went to the nearby basketball court and play. I still can play got a lot of stamina but now I guess I am old afterall.

After playing for around 1 hours, jia wei and me do some pull-up together. I have improve from 1 to 2 pull up! Yay!!Even through is a little improvement but improvement is still a improvement. Jiayou!Jiayou!!Haha...
I also do some sit up and push up to train myself. The mention of push up make me feel angry!! !@!@#. I CANNOT EVEN DO 20 PUSH UP STANDARD ONE! lol!! That is so funny man... Last time when I am still in Npcc, 20 push up top me is not kid but now to me is like so diffcult!! XDD

I am old already and an old man walking towards to the grave. Wahaha.. I feel like going to gym and do some real exercise. My hand feel so feeble and useless, cannot even do PUSH UP!! I aiming a sliver or gold for nafpa test for next semster! I am not afraid of the stations but only one station

That station is pull up which fail most of the student who taking the test. I am a nafapa tester in the school so I know what fail most of them. Another killing station is 2.4km which most of them cannot run in within the timing requested. My best timing for my 2.4km till now is 10.10 min , which is quite good for me la. That timing was during my secondary 4 that time!

These few past day I been thinking about my future ,about my path what I going to take. My collegues talk with me about signing on army force. I got this thinking about signing on as a regular but I hesitate again and again. They told me is a good pay and stable job.I know the pay is decent and the benefits quite good as compare to outside . But I still don't know what I really want to do. I don't want to do office work , or either do a governement job. I want to be freelancer earning money without working. Working take away a lot of time spending with family and friends. I wish to learn the art of investing stocks and earning big bucks of money!!

For poly graduates I am aware that there are plenty of opportunities of job for us to do. But still a diploma cert is still not enough for me, I need a degree at least!!I wish to travel around the world and see the natural scenes . I love to see the animals and wish to learn more about it. I wish to join NATIONAL GEORGRAPHIC company and inspire be like them!! Get to close with nature and be part of their environment.

End of month is coming and that mean PAY DAY!! YAY!! OH..WAHAHA..HEHE..I am going to be siao soon already la.
Tommorrow I shall go back to yee tee and play basketball with my friends. Finally long time never play with them already, miss those days..=)

Anyway I install my MS2007 and anti-virus software already!!Finally la, I can start my report and ppt. I also install maplestory back again, finally get to play. I seem like getting addicited to it already! HOw??Later play till don't need to sleep...XDDD

Julia
Piggy will be back to his mood ok, so puppie must wait ok? Puppie must control her temper and mood also.XDD
Puppie holiday starting already, enjoy while you can!! Anyway don't be afriad of injecting ok? Piggy will be giving moral support!Yay!

Dolly
Rocker saw you updatedn blog that you mention about me! Haha..I am so touched that u mention me..XDD
Haha..I appreciate your efforts...Hope we will be friends forever!!=DDD

Change my blogskin!!
Monday, May 19, 2008 @ 7:20 AM

I change my blogskin cause I am sick and tired of the old blogskin. Hope you guys like this blogskin and enjoy and explore it. The credit goes to my puppie Julia, who help me change the blogskin. Piggy thanks puppie Julia for her effort in helping him changing his blogskin!Yay!=DD

Just back from tennis training, well don't feel like hitting all the shots. My legs become damm heavy and don't feel like ruinning and hit the tennis balls. Anyway Today is vesak day , wish everyone have a nice day for this week!!

Yesteday I was chatting with dai en on msn about some stuff. I reflected on what she say to me and I find what she say make sense. I think I better need to change my character soon but it no easy to change. I hope I will make changes when I come back from attachment. I going to make changes to my appearance soon and my attire!!Hehe...

Anyway I like to thanks harry for helping me to collect my army shoes and pay for me!I appreciate your efforts that you done for me! Thanks bro!=)

Greed, money, love
Saturday, May 17, 2008 @ 6:44 AM

In this world, there are three thing that are human being are chasing after all. First Greed of human nature, where all of us are chasing after thing again and again. Because of greed it will result in death, hurting their family and friends. I wish to mention a good example of it is the mymmar disaster that happen to all of them. The government claim that they can handle the crisis their selves. But this is not what they can handle it. Life is more precious than anything else, why want to bother about the politics stuff?

I am sure eveyone is aware about the two major disaster happen. It is so sad that people are perish cause of natural disaster. I pray that those who are still alive under those rubble will be resuce by people. China have a done a good part in displaying that they are capable in handling this disaster. Haix..it really my heart ache..really heart ache... It also make me realise life is so fragile that who knows that I will be gone the next day??

Life is so much beautfiul in this world, with a lot of things to accomplich. Why can't people cherish each other? Why want to hurt each other? WHy! WHY!! I hate all those who don't cherish their life. DO you know how lucky are you to be born as in this world! As compare to those people who are disable, you are TEN TIME OR EVEN THOUSAND TIMES better than them! So cherish all your friends even thought they don cherish you!

Next is about love , there are all kind of love. Father love, mother love, friendship love and etc. Among all the love that I mention I hate love between two person. Everytime I see a couple together love each other , I really hate to see this kind of situation happen. It make me feel fill with jealous and hate. I hate love,I hate it, I hate it, it just plain sux of love. Go away love, making people happy a while then make poeple suffer later. People look wish to have a good lover to love them, but not always happen to them. I hate you! I hate you! Why I want to know you at first!! WHy Why! you are making my heart ache! : (

It also hurt me when I see my closed friends ard me suffer cause of love. I hope that they will be happy as they are now. =DD


Last of all is money that are cause by greed of human nature. Of course all of us need money right? But money is never enough for everyone even to millionarees. Money can drive us to work harder in term of work and other area. But it also led to greed to have more, never enough.It driving me crazy as money is the cause of eveything in my family. I hate to see my family suffer cause lack of money for everyone. I swear that I going to earn loads of money so that they wont't suffer. It make my heart ache,=X..weep..

Yesterday tennis was sux anyway, friends making me angry for no reason. Come on la, you guys are already 18 year old!! Please stop all these childish games like throwing tennis balls at me. I tired to respect you guys as my friends but you guys respect me?
NO! NO!! I reach my limit and you all make me scold at you all in front of eveyone. I really don't need you to make fun of me.

Today tennis was more fun than yesterday ,been hitting shot that want to hit. But I think I need to get my mood back again. If not I will start doubting all my friends word again!=x I realise I easily irrirated by people if they come and distrub me.

I cannot install the MS 2007 and anti virus when I tried at my school campus. Werid sia , i got to start my inteirm report and presentation. My teacher come and tell me the date for the interim presentation ,it on 28 MAY 2008.

I wish to say sorry to my puppie Julia that I say those harsh sentence on you. I hope you forgive piggy . Piggy will be back to the normal him when puppie know him! =)

Does true friendship really exist in this world?
Thursday, May 15, 2008 @ 6:42 AM

I longer want to post this question on my blog. Some of my friends ask me about this question, I also don't know how to answer them back. In this whole univerise, the most diffcult to understand among all the animals is human being. There a chinese proverb" you know the person, but you won't ever understand his/her heart". It really apply on real life just like I see my friends from their face expression. They can be similing at you nicely, but who knows they will backstab at your back!! So I advice all my friend to be careful when looking for !!

I hate some of my friends who are pretending to nice to me and at the back talking bad abt me!! I cry because of him, get lose all these losers!! :(( Get lost and far away I don't wish to see your bloody face again! I am that type person who cherish friends and it hate me to see friends like that! Asshole!! I don't mean to mention it but I get sick of it already. Those who wish to be my true friend, I open my hand and welcome your glady. Those who tried to get close with me cause I rich or I hardworking, fuck off and get lost. I am really sick of tired of doing my best and smiling all my friends. Why some of my friends have to be like me?? I don't know noe la!

Today I work till 7pm on the clock sharp, so many customer advice coming at the same time. Sorry to trouble nishi for helping me in my work, customer just like kings to us. Without customer mean no business meaning we can go home and sleep!! =DDD Customer like to make changes LAST MIN CHANGES, BIG SHOT IZZIT? Come on la, it make our job even more diffcult and tougher! Come on la, give us a break if you all are good why not you all do the job!
Work sometimes can be very stressful and tense but my collegues also make me smile!=DD

I want to go back to myself again to back to where I in sec sch life! NO more boss, No more stress,just fun and study!! Haix..time already pass by, I cannot get back in time!!I realise I changes a lot from sec sch to poly !I become more daring, talkative, more rude to people=X, maybe more mature in term of thinking bah. I tend to think more thing deeply and think it carefully first before moving to another step!

I wonder whether who is my true and really true friend who are there for me when I am low, happy, sad, angry, irrirated, emo, crazy, shock, surprised. I really very confused, lost and wish to stop and reflected it clearly!! Wahaha..I also siao already most of my friends are just say "hi" and go, like no feelings one just like a passing wind pass your body. While some friends are just come and interact with you for some time, then mock at you cause you say wrongly! Another type of friends are those close to me cause I quite good in studies. They want me to help him in exam when it coming, when exam are over they see you like see ghost. Reality and cruel world am i right to say?

Last group of my friends well I still cannot say they will last forever. They are the closed group of friends that I really get along and share my private matter. But my thoughts as I feel that one of my closed friends don't interact with me for very long already. I still cherish that friendship, but it getting further and further. It like being swep by the big wave away from the land, with no goal in front of me. While some of my closed friends , I like calling them for the sake of calling her/him. I just wish to share to my story , my feelings , my little part of my life. That all I hope for, nothing less nothing more. That a simple request from you all only . But I guess I cannot get any attention from you all, nvm.. I guess I express my feelings in my blog bah.

Tired...From the run....=XX...
Wednesday, May 14, 2008 @ 8:57 AM

I just back from running, totally shag from the running. Nth to blog actually for today as work is so freaking boring!! Ah...I want to go for a Holiday and away from Singapore. Work is so so so extreme boring and tiring for mE! =DDD As usual I went to jogging with jia wei and harry. As we run we talk about stuff that are commonly share, although we did argue sometimes. Haix..I think I gaining fat as I see my own body. =X

I think I going to gym soon or later to train for my pull up station for napfa test. Harry say that I am lazy to do pull up. I am lazy to do that ,lazy to run, talking rudly to people la. I don't know why I am like that but I know I am can be very high sometimes! End of this months going to hand in interim report and do a presentation to my collegues and manager!>.<

AND.......I HAVENT EVEN START MY REPORT OR PPT!! Can anyone help me with my ppt and report!!Lol!! Please!!=P..


Harry
I am sorry for today rudeness and ignoreness to you. I hope you understand my feelings. I didn't mean to do it today!Anyway nice jogging with you! CHEER!! For your tiger beer no1! Probably the best beer in the world!

Jia wei
My best male buddy in my circle of friends!! Thanks for be listening ears at all times and cheer me up!! I hope that we will be still buddy forever!!=DDD Don't drink too much beer next time!!XDD

Jia hui(Ah girl)
If you happen to see this post, then I will be happy la! I guess the distance bewteen us as a buddy are drifting further and further away =(. But still I regard you as my best female buddy among the female friends! Take care of your health and drink some herbel medicine to boast up!! (:

Julia(Puppie)
Puppie!!!....Piggy never bully puppie lor!! Anyway don't give up on your study and look forward in study! Nobody like to study sia, I also don't like but no choice I guess! If you are feeling crazy or sad or happy want to find someone to chat, piggy just a phone away!! (: SMILE!!=DDD

Dolly(ROCKER!)
Haha..words cannot help a person to heal his/her sorrows. But it will brighten their day,I hope I also can help all my friends in their daily life!!XDD. Even cannot, times will heal these sorrows slowly and back to normal life again!! Take care!!

I just bought my second hand racket!! =DDD...ooo..
Tuesday, May 13, 2008 @ 7:37 AM

I just back from mac of bkp plaza, I buy my second handed racket! It the same extact model and brand. Pure drive of Barbolar version series at the price of 150 SIN DOLLARS!!! XDD.Omg..there goes my money again to someone pocket!! SO upset and heart pain..hehe..no choice I guess! The condition of the racket was quite good just a few stratches. I wish to lower the price of the racket but the seller refuse to lower bah. In the end I hand in the money to him, sob, so sad la!! =(

These past few day I been very addicited to friender, keep on adding friends!!=DD I hope that I will make as many as friends a possible in the world!! Life is short, I have to cherish all my family and friends!!Anyway I really thanks for friendster creator to let me know many friends!!

Yesterday and Today I just chat with puppie for quite long time!! Puppie Julia sometime very naughty, keep bullying piggy weisiong!!=XXX..=DDD Anyway puppie must rest well and sleep earlier and apply medicine on her finger!! : )

I know a new friend from friendster!!=DD Her name is call DOLLY ROCKER!!Yay!!As requested by you, I updated my blog!! wahahah..Nice meeting you!!SMILE!! CHEER UP!! : )

These few past days I been release from work at 6 15 pm which is quite late.=X My collegues keep giving me a lot of assignment, going to make me collapse!!How???!#!@

Sleeping soon....=OO....Yawn..

Happy Mother Day to all the mothers in the world!
Sunday, May 11, 2008 @ 5:24 AM

Firstly, Today is Mother day where all children of the parents celebrate for their parents. Well, I don't know whether what to buy for my parents. But one maybe now don't know but in the future I will buy something for them. Well, right now I am damn upset and piss off about friendster staff. Human being make mistake also, write comments will be also write wrong sometimes. Well, I guess I add too many friends and I write wrong comments.

But you all don't know to give me THAT KIND OF COMMENT BACK. Yes, you all look pretty and nice but don't need to criticise me till like that. Big deal is it, come on, without you all my life still go on normal. It just got pretty face doest'n mean can critics people like that!Who care you are!This world is still beautiful without all of you!!Wahaha...

Suddenly very irriated by some people, damm proud they are!! Haha...irrirated by those people.Arrgh..Cool down...I am going to cool down myself!!I rarely angry by them..But this time round is really....wahha...

Feeling and trust.....
Friday, May 9, 2008 @ 8:54 PM

These past few day, I been feeling quite empty and down for no reason. Maybe cause I realise in this world, it diffcult to see who are really nice or not nice to you. Take for example my collegues working with me, most of them are quite nice person to work with. But I find that I cannot take their kindness for granted. When I doing anything I cannot take anything for granted. Whether is peace, or friendship, relationship, you got cherish.

Back to the storyline again, yesterday I just normal joking with them only. Then one of the collegues become quite fierce to me out of sudden. I was like...=XX..bad feeling sia..haha.well I don care about them!!

Yesterday chat with Julia about friendship about her and her friends..=DD True friends are not easily to find but if you willing to find it. You will be ABLE TO FIND ONE!!I believe in that cause I have true friend who are there for me when I am down or happy!!It not easy to find my true friends. The meaning of true friend to me meaning friend that don care who you are and after incidient again and again. They will believe in you no matter what happen.

Wei Siong true friends in this list.
1.Jia wei
2.Jia Hui
3.Julia
4.Harry

Wei Siong good friend in this list(Well, I have some..=DD)
1.Yong han
2.Eugene
3.Adrian
4.Fabian
5.Jarrel

Well that all I can think for now, if got anymore I will updated you guys!!
Gtg sleep!!=DDD

I don really mean to...I don really mean to...
Monday, May 5, 2008 @ 5:57 AM

I don't really mean to eat the pizza, not pupose eat that pizza in front of everyone. I really dislike working life, where you have to stare at the computer for so many long hours. It bad for health, and hurt your eyes also. It make my eye feel heavy and have headache. Let me introduce my collegue who are working with me for this 5 months in attachment.

Well, I cannot introduce all my collegues, some of them have left the workplace.In my workplace there are always fun and joy while working. Working life is very stressful and tight to all of us as human. That why some of my collegues make joke with each other to make the enviornment more relaxing. First my male collegues, nishi , he quite a nice person to interact with but only have mood swing sometimes. But still he a really a nice person to talk with. I got any question I will go directly and ask him. Next is fauqiah I don't know her extract name, she kind of funny as she and nishi always pretending to be like a loving couple. Both of them make joke with each other while rest of us laughing non-stop!!=)

Thirdly is andrew whose is my commerical manager and the person who will decide my grade for my attachment. Anyway the interim report for my iap due date is coming closer and closer, I wonder how going to make this presentation. Oh shit la!! Two more report due!!My lecuture not even care whether I have done or not!!Please anymore help me with the presentation!!

I just reformat my lappie yesterday, this lappie been with me for almost three years. It not that fast it is when I first started used it. Whatever my lappie become so laggy and slow, I will reformat it.

I did some careful deep thinking of myself about my character and my life. Right now I am 19 years old with a future in my hand. I want to do things that I wish to do in my life.I take charge of my own bloodly life!!Noone can stop me or tell me unless you think you are big shot or what!!
But one thing I lack in my self in self-confidence. Those closed friends of mine who know my character well will know that I am a person who lack self-confidence in.I always been doubting all my close friends, asking stupid questions which are stupid. Stupid weisiong la!!Why so stupid!! Haha.

I feel like crying at sometime when see some touching scences. My emotion always get so involved in it. Well I got to be emotional strong in the future to come.Crying make you feel better as it let out all the emotion that you held in.Basic it good for your body!!

I wish that puppie Julia will get back her mood soon again and I will be very happy for her!!Cheer up puppie julia!!=DDD

In the end I almost win the match
Saturday, May 3, 2008 @ 8:46 PM

Yesterday I tired my very best in that matches that I ever play in my life. I almost win the match 9-8 (7-5). It was a close match that I ever play with him. In the end it the best out of two win the match. It a cruel and reality truth in this world. But I also gain more experience in that match.I realise my strokes problem and something wrong with other stuff.

Anyway I appreiciate those group of tennis friends who are there to cheer me up!!=DDD Thanks you all of you!!Right now my whole body ache, leg ache, hand ache, back ache everywhere ache la.I feel phyiscally shag and exhausted from yesterday play. I want to take temporary break from tennis for a while cause my body need to rest. I wish to take a holiday from tennis haha....

For my attachment I still have two weekly report due which haven't even start yet.I don know what to include for the content of my report. I feel like not writing more report for my teacher. Everyday I been doing the same thing over and over again.

Puppie julia is having a high fever now, piggy wish her recover as fast as possible.Take care of your body la!! Drink more water and rest well!!=DDD All the best for her science exam paper!!
Smile!!=DDD

Finally know who the opponet is already...
Friday, May 2, 2008 @ 7:28 AM

I finally know who my opponent for tomorrow match of nbtour 2008. He is the ex nyp captain of the school tennis club team. Althought I not sure who he is but one thing I am sure of is he is good. So sian la, why I always kanna those player that are really damm good!! First time is no2 seeded player, now is ex nyp captain. Next is what can anyone tell me??

I really out of luck this time round, I guess tomorrow is my dead day. It going to be tough match for me and at least I know what to do. Against a strong player like them, what I have is only experience and skills. I hope I can apply all in it. Right now I feel damm tired and shag from
today training. Training become more and more meaningless to me as my stroke become weaker and weaker. All my shots are become weaker and weaker and useless.

I pray for strength and courage for tomorrow matches!!=DDD

End up fail up the trail and piss off with someone...
Thursday, May 1, 2008 @ 1:25 AM

Today school team trial was a totally disaster and failure to me. This is my worst situtation happen to my life. I was quite happy and relaxing when go in the trial. First the coaches spilit us into 4 person one court and practice the strokes. Based on our strokes it will determine whether we pass or fail the trail.
First practice was down the court, I was quite nervous that time. But I get in time and stroke back, the ivp guys was good in term of skills. Next is crosscourt against with another partner,
he hit a lot of spin shot. All the shot that he hit will spin a lot , so I have to hit till the ball reach my level. Hitting like that back to him, show to them I am not good at returining the ball. My coach say that my strokes are weak shots. I was damm upset and piss off about it.

I feel VERY UPSET AND DEMORALISED ABOUT it. After the trial, I keep in deep thoughts about the journey from the start till now. From the start I pick up playing tennis, from learning the basics till now, I been quite happy about it. Till today when I realise that I lose my aim, my motivation, my strength, my courage and my everything. Right now I feel like smashing my racket and forget everything about tennis. Sob..I don know what to say anymore!!Fcuk!!Fcuk!!

Another things is about today was someone that I know. My friend and I was damm piss off with him as his attiude sux among all my friends!!Come on la, we are friends spare the feelings of those who fail the trail la!! We are human being even human being have feelings la. I don wish to say anymore about him. He the worse friend I ever see in my whole entire life!!

Plus this saturday I am going to go for nbtour matches, double impact in my life. I really don't feel like playing tennis anymore. If that the case, I will thrash all of them even to the extend of risking of my life. In this world, everything are so reality fact!! Those who look more handsome, pretty or rich always get the advantage over it.
I go for interviews, I fail again. I went to the school trail, I fail again. I do what thing never have a time succuessful one. I tired my best to please my friends, they make me like a clown. Fcuk all you guys! I AM DAMM TIRED and sick of you all. Leave me alone and go aways from my life. I only wish to have true friend who are there for you when you are down, sad , happy or angry!!

Another thing is I really appreciate that I have a circle of true friend who are there for me. No matter how rude I am to them or what, they are still there. Wei siong really happy to know all of you!! =DDDD. Another thing I wish to express is about the sudden suprise to jarrel house about some matter. I am really very sorry about that incident as we just suddenly went to your house about it. We didnt mean to trouble you that day , I hope you understand about it. I am sorry about that incidient. Jarrel

One last thing, Piggy saw the puppie latest blog post about him. Piggy really touch by puppie those paragraph of words. Those paragraph of puppie words give piggy a lot of moviation and strength. Piggy will do his best for this coming saturday!!No matter what it takes ,piggy will give his best shots and win the championship for puppie!! =DD That a promise from piggy to puppie!!